Idiosyncrasy and Peculiarity served hot…

Can I just announce to the world how much I love CANS! I know the sound of CANS- California Nails and Day Spa is like a siren of kaartehan and kakikayan peircing the ears. But for me its more than just looking great, its about being able to rest and relaxed so that you will be able to feel alive and beautiful. Mock me and all but after that stressful, toxifying week, CANS became my sanctuary last saturday. not because of anything else in the list, but purely because i needed a place were i could breathe new oxygen and a little time to absorb some earthly happiness. God, my lovely God gave me that gift, he gave me the chance to pamper myself in CANS and i am most greatful indeed. Well i guess what im trying to say is, God works in ways i least expect him to work on, and i am just speechless and greatful for being able to receive and feel God’s love for me through these little things. through this, i have learned to appreciate things that i have taken for granted most of the time. Without God last week, i wouldn’t have the faintest idea where i would be if he wasn’t there every step of the way. he made things and instances much better, clearer, easier… what more could i ask for? =D

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
Inside my head

Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close,
Dont patronize

Dont patronize me

I cant make you love me
If you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And Ill feel the power
but you wont
No, you wont
Cause I cant make you love me
If you dont

Ill close my eyes
then I wont see
The love you dont feel
when your holding me

Morning will come
and Ill do whats right
Just give me til then
to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

I cant make you love me
If you dont
You cant make your heart feel something it wont
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And Ill feel the power
but you wont
No, you wont
Cause I cant make you love me
If you dont

Its 1:00 am, and no one cares if the acuity of the time is late or perhaps advanced as long as there is time to write. Time consistently amazes me, and surprises me even at this very moment. I am only in control with a few seconds and thats about it, then suddenly it just passes me by… never to return to me even if i loose my teeth. ^_^ Im actually very haggard and tired as of this moment. the smiley that you saw earlier is the product of masking, pretence and a facade. im a certified nomad, who happens to be tired and exhausted with what life, or should i say mundane life has beem trying to show me. it looks so alluring and enticing to just slip from this world into a seasonless one. yes a secured world were middle ground is the hottest new trend, while pure bliss and peircing pain is nothing but a  figment of someone’s ilusions to actually put meaning to this humdrum life…. my hands are typing away, but it seems like my brain cant catch up with him… how sad… how powdery my pondering is… please with all do respect dont mind me, incoherence is residing here. weepidooooo…..